I don't have much to say about myself. I'm a twenty year old (as of 2025) college student. I want to go to law school, but I fear my grades are too bad to ever be able to. It sucks, but I can't do anything about it. i'll go by R on here, because even though if you know me it will become very obvious this is my website, i dont want people i dont know knowing me. this might not make sense to you, but it makes sense to me.

since this website is mostly just for my own logging and whoever is nosey, i'll let you guys (guys = nobody) in on this one in my headbrain. i'm very ill (in the head) and it makes me sort of weird. i'm also ill in the knees/legs and i'm always very tired. i cant sleep, but im tired. i dont know why but thats whats going on. i attribute this to childhood problems that have caused life-long chronic pain.

so whatever. on top of this, i have a pluralsystem inside my head. they will probably write here, but you will probably not get to know whos who. thats on purpose, as we spent much of our teenage years revealing too much about ourselves online. life goes on.

i also deal with a lot of hallucinations. im not medicated, and i do not think i will be able to anytime soon, as i have no money. i'm sort of jobless. im looking for a job though, as i am trying to get away from my family. i live in an apartment with three roommates. i like things like gorey horror films, horror books, and odd music. however, the stuff i listen to the most is pretty basic.

since this is my own page i will not censor the way i type. i tend to go out of my way to make myself sound smarter or more coherent than i actually believe myself to be. i stumble over my words often in my speech, and i find it embarassing. i go in and out of a lisp, and i think its just because when i was a little kid i had a pretty strong one. regardless, if you see odd ways of typing things, errors, or incoherent text-- i'm not fixing it.

all that being said, you can probably find out more about me between the lines of this page. i hope you enjoy the experience here. im not sure how often will update it but i am having fun and find a sense of calm editing this, so i will probably continue to enjoy it and fix it up.

i love you. good evening. - R

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